Here in Port Louis, Mauritius, I sit in a hotel room waiting for tropical cyclone Eleanor. The downstairs bar is emptied of its glasses, bottles and furniture, tiny birds fly unchecked in the indoor breakfast room, grateful to be indoors where the crumbs are plentiful; guests gather at the buffet, filling their plates, unsure of when the next meal will be served. Storm tracking apps are traded like stocks with much chatter on Eleanor’s projectory and strength; reception lies quiet, its glass front doors locked. Hotel staff who have not gone home bustle around, calmly helping guests with their queries and needs.
Bellies full, we stagger back to the room where the food coma hits and I pass out, missing the blustery gusts, the driving rain and the Palm trees bent double in the gales. I wake up to silence. No bird song but no perceptible damage either. The anti-climax hangs in the air between us, like a missed opportunity for a story yet to be told. In gratitude, Craig completes his expenses and cleans up his emails while I sit with my book, trying to concentrate and quieten the busy mind.
For me the last 24 hours are the analogy for the last six months – a promise of something which turns out not quite as expected.
For South Africa is a beautifully cruel country offering contrasting experiences and incredible highs and lows. Learning to trade in trust has been hard, I’m having to go inward to come out again. While we remain physically safe, I have lost psychological safety having trusted people who have stolen thousands of pounds worth of irreplaceable family heirlooms and jewellery from our home. When coupled by a serious physical assault by a medical professional, who was (wrongly) trusted on the basis he was a British High Commission approved Doctor, I find myself unmoored, bobbing along in a questioning sea; What is my skill set? What is my cultural awareness? How do I show up?
By contrast, placed in wide-open spaces of endless sky and a far horizon glinting in the sunlight, with elephant breath through the window and a reverberating lion roar in the ear drum, the country of South Africa delivers a truth perspective; I am but a mere speck of breath in the universe.
And so, in this ying and yang of experience and expectation, disappointment and joy, fear and excitement, I sit in stasis. I have to work first on self before enjoying the fruits of future work.
While this cannot be rushed, I also recognise my fortune; a now comfortable home and a life-partner gainfully employed, I have the luxury of taking the time needed to heal and explore. My South African counsellor, used to dealing with victims of violent assault, murder and rape does not indulge willy-nilly, self-reflective wallowing. Let’s call the spade a shovel and we will dig in to the past to understand the present. In reality this means I am swallowing medicine I have tried to avoid for 30 years.
You can’t lie to liars without becoming a liar. We can’t cheat a cheater without becoming a cheater. Fighting fire with fire doesn’t protect trust it merely leaves you with the ashes of your integrity. Michael Josephson
I don’t know where this will lead. For the first-time, in a long time, there is no clear outcome. To learn to trust again, I must first trust in time and instinct.
I wrote this over a year ago and for some reason never posted it. Given all that’s happening now with BLM and the ugliness of division wrought bare with UK and US politics, it seems apt to actually press “publish”
Last year, the Irish actor, Liam Neeson, opens his mouth and lets a genuine insight come out during a newspaper interview with a journalist, Clémence Michallon. In this he admits to having combed the streets looking for any lone, random, aggressive, black-skinned man; to batter with a cosh in revenge for a close female friend being raped. During this interview, Neeson was at pains to point out that he knew his feelings were wrong and this primal need for revenge could not be assuaged in a decent society. And given he probably knows more than most, the reeking damage that revenge creates, having grown up in Ireland at the height of the troubles, I’m inclined to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Obviously I don’t know Neeson so cannot speak on his motives and how he thinks. However, he does make a fine point which has been lost in a lot of the more sensationalist press and TV coverage on this story; primal revenge comes from a very different place than conscious or subconscious bias and the two should not be confused.
Even the associate professor of experimental psychology at University College London, Lasana Harris, struggles to make a conclusive link. Although he says that incidents such as rape can shape the the way someone thinks about a specific community, he thinks that it may have something to do with existing or pre-existing biases. To give credit where its due, he acknowledges that there is an unjustifiable prejudice when it comes to black people being perceived as perpetrators of sexual assault. “You can control it if you’re aware of the stereotype, if you’re aware of the fact that you have these stereotypes and these biases,” he says.
It’s this acknowledgement which creates the distinction; primal revenge involves an action or behaviour which is not premeditated or thought out. Bias is often a conditioned choice which can be mitigated once someone is aware they are biased in some way. Neeson became aware of this in the week after hearing of the rape and chose to change his attitude and behaviour.
This all starts with our brains which are complex systems which control much of what we do. We can be exposed to 11 million pieces of information at any one time; however our brain only has capacity to functionally deal with about 40 information ‘bites’ at any moment. Thankfully we have the capacity to make unconscious decisions within 200 to 250 milliseconds after taking in a piece of stimuli, so we filter information and select what is important to us, to reduce the demand on our brains.
In addition, and I’m massively simplifying lots of neurological research here; our brain is made up of 100 billion neurons. As we grow and develop, these neurons are ‘wired up’ to each other and then communicate through thousands of connections helping form our memories. The part of the brain called the hippocampus is vital for forming new memories. We use our hippocampus and surrounding areas to bind our memories together and add information about context or location. Given we start to form our memories as early as 3 days old, we all have different memories based on our own experiences, backgrounds, cultures and attributes. Even so our memories are not exact records of events; they are reconstructed in many different ways after events happen, which means they can be distorted by several of our biases.
Our fundamental way of looking at and encountering the world is driven by this “hard-wired” pattern of making decisions about others based on our memories and what feels safe, likeable, valuable, competent, etc. without us even realising it. So we see certain things and miss certain things, depending on what the unconscious is focused on. It filters the evidence that we collect, generally supporting our already held points of view, and dis-proving a point of view that we disagree with.
Add to this mix, our culture, which comes to life though the symbols and meanings, stories and myths, observations, values and assumptions we start gathering from a very young age. Symbiotically we absorb the generalisations and stereotypes that our human groups holds and by human groups I mean family, friends, colleagues that we spend time with; they all influence our bias even when we don’t realise. We all use stereotypes to some extent, as they help us to learn about people and other human groups as well as make quick decisions such as, is this situation safe or dangerous? Our capacity for stereotyping also helps us look through a busy crowd and spot our friends. So in summary our brains, cultural upbringing and life experiences influence our stereotypical thinking and our biases. Its what makes us uniquely human.
I’ve hosted cultural subconscious bias awareness workshops and run coaching sessions on the impact of bias particularly on decision making and teamwork. Invariably participants warm up by completing a number of the free bias tests offered online. These are useful for me too as certain instances or situations on this island can affect my bias and I want to stay aware of my reactions and choices.
For I too experience deep seated racial bias here in Barbados. White skins to black skins; black skins to white skins and black skins to different shades of black skins. I have lost count of the amount of times I have been standing in a queue, quite happily with all colours of skin, only to find when its my turn to be served for the black-skinned teller or server to walk off, or find another laborious task to do first, before serving me. Never was this more blatant than in a Wildey coffee shop next to Carters, the local hardware store, when after queuing to place my coffee order, the local server walked off when I got to the front of the queue, forcing her colleague to eventually shout across the store for my order. I watched the same woman do this twice over with other white- skinned customers as I sat drinking my coffee. Another small example involves the local Cheapside market stall vendor who charges me $6 for a bag of lemons and then charges the customer standing next to me $2 for the same product. When I ask about the price difference, I’m aggressively informed “this is my price. Do you want the lemons or not”? You quickly learn not to argue, particularly when you feel the need for the accompanying gin! Living here and experiencing this regularly I now have a small inkling of what racism must feel like for black skinned people living on my home island.
There are many training courses and workshops that recruiters and hiring managers can attend to make sure that their own biases do not affect the hiring process. However, its often difficult to find out the personal biases and attitude of the candidate without stepping into a minefield of employment law. This is why I love this practical 5 minute article by Fletcher Winbush which gives an easy to follow 6 point guide for any hiring manager to uncover any underlying attitude issues held by a candidate.
More employers, particularly those in the service sectors; need to hire for the right attitude and awareness of personal bias, than just relying on skills (which can be taught) or experience (which can be learned on the job).
Understanding our personal biases gives us choice; to look at any situation which gets our dander up and figure out why we think and feel this way.
Stay curious about difference. Stay curious about yourself.
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